It gladdens my heart to know you have found your happiness.
A light of sadness still glows at the thought that I couldn't be the reason for your joy.
It will be put out soon enough.
So refrain from thinking of me.
Forget me altogether.
Chase happiness, let me see you smile, because in turn, I derive the faintest bit of joy from the rays of your happiness.
I'm not so petty as to be downcast that you chose to forget me.
In all honesty, you gave me more days than I ever thought I'd have.
However, on this side of the earth, where the air is different,
You still litter the streets of my mind.
Litter away my love.
Only your footprints on the sandy shores of my mind.
I refuse to give up on the memories I have with you.
I only have these memories.
In them I've found shelter.
In them lies the only way I can be with you.
I'm wrapped in a blanket of melancholic joy.
So I'm pleading with you, allow me to still hold on to these memories.
Do not tear away my blanket.
I can promise, to not send you anymore letters,
I'll write them and pretend you know what words I put down.
Feel free to let my memories ashes blow out of your mind,
I'll hold no grudge against you for this.
I always knew happy endings were far-fetched.
But I'll nurture the ember of optimising that glows bright for us,
Gently blow at it, keep it glowing, for this world or the next.
There will come a time for the flame of our love to burn bright.
I'll love you till then and beyond.
Yours always,
Ade.
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