Home, I'm No Longer Lost

I have found home.

I have found home, where I naturally ought to,
But I didn't.
All for a lack of connection.
That connection has been established.

I feel pain when I bare witness to the sorrow of home.
Then I give myself that KICK to be apart of the change that eradicates that pain.

I swell with pride at the beauty that she has to offer.
And then, I give myself that KICK to be a part of this beauty that brings joy.

I have found home.
In the seasons that this land is blessed with.
My season has been chosen, when that time comes I am in my element.
My season comes with heavy clouds and wet grounds,
Green leaves and overgrown lawns.
Umbrellas and raincoats,
Nippy air, mornings and nights cold.

I have found home.
In the cuisines, that are rich with pepper.
Colourful and elaborate traditional attires.
An overdose of melanin QUEENS with robust and beautiful bodies, as spicey as the foods they cook.

I have found home.
In the land, God himself gave to me.
The land of my fathers and  mothers,
The land of my children yet to come,
A land forever blessed.

Hamster's Last. (Hamster's Letter 6)

My Dearest Hamster,

At last I know heartbreak.
I had previously claimed it, but that was a secondhand taste.

Now it is mine.
The taste, richly bitter.
The pain, stings and does not fade.
My tears, salty.
I held the glass, swirled the wine, and gulped it all down.

I had no choice but to wave goodbye.

Nothing, that was all I could do.
My options do not exist,
I am powerless.
With a clenched jaw, I must accept what has transpired.

Did you know it was all for you?
My distance?
Did you know my growth was primarily for you?
Now, I will never show you.
You will never appreciate it,
You will never love me,
We will never grow, even more, together.

With whom do I share this with?
I have been alone for too long.

So here I stand, with tears in my eyes, and acceptance forced into my heart.
A happiness for you, illuminating the darkness.
Like the Sun piercing through murky skies.
I smile,
And return the gesture, waving you away in your final goodbye.

Farewell Hamster.

Forever yours,
Ade.